Saturday, November 7, 2009

leaky ceiling

its saturday, and i'm at work.

we have a leak in our roof. well, more like 3. as we placed a bucket underneath to catch the water and looked up to the sky, we could see the damage to the area surrounding the leak. it occurred to me that this isn't just a little bit of water coming in from a storm outside. this has the potential to do a lot of damage to the structure of the building. and i was struck at the profound significance this thought has in the rest of my life right now.

i'm at the point in a particular situation where the roof is caving in around me, and i have to ask myself, when did the leak start? at what point did i make the decision to ignore it? have i known all along that this was going to happen?

the thing of it is, i think i can pinpoint when the leak started. and i think the leak was fear. i chose to ignore it for a long time.

the time has come to actually deal with the matter at hand. how much am i at fault? how much do i need to let go of? can we even start over, or is this damage irreparable?

sure enough, the only answer is God. his grace, mercy, love, forgiveness and hope.

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